| i can write safely here
because i assume most of my friends have abandoned xanga
well, k. it kinda goes like this.
[definition of rachel's heartbreak]
my bestie decided he doesn't like me as much
and doesn't enjoy being around me anymore
so we pretty much stopped talking out of no where.
but it's what he wanted, so i guess i can deal with it
then i started liking this boy, right?
and he was cute and funny and musical and artistic
but he ended up being an asshole just like everyone else
he says he doesn't like me because
he doesn't want to hurt a friend of his who does like me
but truthfully, i think it's bullshit
i think he needed an excuse
i don't think he ever really liked me in the first place
plus, i quit my job
which would be fine and dandy except for the fact
that i'm out every night of the week
and i need money to fund myself
which leads me to another problem,
lack of sleep
i usually nod off around five or six am
after a sleepless encounter at the apartment
which i may be avoiding for said time
as to not see said boy from above
the cutie
not the bestie
and that's the worst part, he really is cute.
and that's the worst part, i really did like him.
this is why
rachel.rockstar
doesn't date boys.
doesn't date anyone.
she keeps to herself.
&flirts with the world.
maybe i just won't ever let anyone get close to me.
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| florida
florida
florida
in 2 hours!
ahhh, i'll miss you all.
rachel rockstar will be causing havoc elsewhere this week.
back on easter.
loving and eighteen.
-Rache<3
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| i'm just waiting
for the person
who's supposed
to save me
on a lighter note,
i hope he's cute.
-Rache<3
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| are things actually getting better?
i'm not sure if i should believe this
because chances are it's just going to start hurting again
but i can hope
why am i such a hopeful girl?
When can i be the happy-go-lucky Starbucks girlie I used to be?
Do you guys remember her?
-Rache<3
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| i'm feeling like a million dollars tonight.
a million dollars that someone lost.
that was picked up by an alcoholic hobo.
who ended up blowing it all on getting really [effing] drunk.
getting alcohol-poisoning.
and dying.
that's how i feel tonight.
-Rache<3
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